[ Had Connor done the respectable thing and backed off, Oliver wouldn't have believed it. He's almost positive he's the first person to ever say no to kissing Connor Walsh and it has to sting something fierce.
You could call it another unfortunate side effect of his dickish behavior.
Oliver doesn't quite have the same stubborn competitive streak as Connor, but this isn't a competition. This is Oliver protecting himself from getting hurt all over again. (If he'd really wanted to do that, he probably shouldn't have invited Connor over to begin with, but.) It feels like there's a fist in his chest when Connor laces their fingers—which, he'd argue, is something couples do—and there's a prickling heat crawling slowly up his neck into his face.
Connor's smile gets a pinched expression in response.
He doesn't say it won't be just one kiss, that if he kisses Connor he doesn't trust himself to stop, that it'll probably lead to sex, which would be a bad idea on so many levels.
Instead, he says: ]
Why should I? [ He wrests his hands from Connor so he can't keep confusing him with his laced fingers and the caresses of his thumb. ] I can't, Connor. I won't. You think just because you say a few nice things and- and hold my hand and give me that look, I'll do whatever you want?
no subject
You could call it another unfortunate side effect of his dickish behavior.
Oliver doesn't quite have the same stubborn competitive streak as Connor, but this isn't a competition. This is Oliver protecting himself from getting hurt all over again. (If he'd really wanted to do that, he probably shouldn't have invited Connor over to begin with, but.) It feels like there's a fist in his chest when Connor laces their fingers—which, he'd argue, is something couples do—and there's a prickling heat crawling slowly up his neck into his face.
Connor's smile gets a pinched expression in response.
He doesn't say it won't be just one kiss, that if he kisses Connor he doesn't trust himself to stop, that it'll probably lead to sex, which would be a bad idea on so many levels.
Instead, he says: ]
Why should I? [ He wrests his hands from Connor so he can't keep confusing him with his laced fingers and the caresses of his thumb. ] I can't, Connor. I won't. You think just because you say a few nice things and- and hold my hand and give me that look, I'll do whatever you want?